New year coming....

It's been a little bit since my last blog.  Lots going on with Ava's birthday, the holidays, work, tying up loose ends for my new job, and trying to maintain what very little social life I have.  Oh and did I mention shopping around for graduate programs...good times! 

Things seem to be in a state of transition.  Friendships are evolving and I'm not really sure how to go with the flow.  I am having some real trust issues once again.  This has always been my deal.  But as those close to me say, you let the bad in with the good.  Unfortunately, as things evolve I am learning things about people that I wish I hadn't.  I feel myself forcing a happy face just so I don't have to answer a lot of questions.  And that is usually the opposite of who I am.  I have never been one to hide my feelings.  But lately I don't know who I can trust with my feelings.  People like to talk and I don't want to fuel the gossip fire.  So I choose to keep my mouth shut.  And I am sure if you are reading this and it makes you feel a certain way then maybe you should examine your actions closely.  Because you may be hurting someone and not even realize it. For now, I do know who my true friends are.  It is a very small group and I am ok with that.  Because I know these people would never turn their backs on me for the sake of making conversation.  My advice?  If you have a question about my life, feel free to ask me.  Don't speculate behind my back...

As the new year approaches, I am confident that I can take on the challenges laid before me.  I have high hopes for myself and those closest to me!  No matter how things play out, I will hold my head high and keep looking forward.